the end

hello blog,

it’s me again. i guess for such things, there is no where i can say to, except to you. so dear blog, please bear with me and lend me your listening ears.

for the past month, i kept having a recurring dream. though the dream is not the same, the storyline is the same. i dreamt about him and son and me. the storyline is the same. dreamt about us being together and being found out and then having to brave out together.

yeah, i wish. anyway, that was the dream, the first time i dream, i thought ok, but it recurred so many times, at least 5, in the past month.

and yesterday, i was just wondering. how does he feel sleeping beside her? a question he asked me before, wondered if he has the answer. does he kiss her when she sleeps, just like he kissed me when he came back from work that night? that was two years ago, but i remembered. how time flies, 2 years, and so much had happened. does he hug her when they sleep, just like he hugged me that night?

yes, how fast a love can change. within months and weeks. yes, when someone is down and sick, when another comes along, it’s easy. yes, probably that was what happen to me too. i came along at the right time.

ok, dreams are for the night, it’s day time now, so i should stop daydreaming.

yes, from henceforth, i will stop daydreaming. i will not cry, yeah, not even crocodile tears.

the old blog should have been deleted long ago, was wondering why i held on to it. yup, after this, i will also go to yahoo to delete all the mails. i will also break the cd of songs. all no longer applies.

today i suddenly realise, all along i was the 3rd party.

as i look out of the window, the sky is bright and cheery, nothing to be sad.

marriage is a happy thing, so all sincere blessings from the bottom of my heart. finally, two people who are truly in love and should be together will finally be together, joyous occasion.

there is nothing for me to hide either. from henceforth, life renews itself.